The speaker seems to be struggling toward a better life while feeling trapped in a painful pattern. At first, digging and pushing suggest effort and determination. As the lyrics develop, that effort gives way to exhaustion: the speaker feels unable to escape what is hurting them, though the repeated hope for “something better” remains.
Several images connect suffering with the speaker’s own actions. “Sowing the seeds” suggests creating the conditions for later consequences, while the thorn from a tree the speaker planted implies that some pain may come from choices they made or things they neglected. The “leech” suggests something that drains their strength; the “leash” suggests being controlled or led, perhaps by a habit, relationship, or inner impulse. The lyrics do not specify which.
The phrase “I’m bleeding me” can be read as self-inflicted harm in a broad emotional sense: the speaker may be both the person causing pain and the person suffering from it. Calling themselves a priest who feeds a beast, then asking to be made pure or cured, adds a conflicted wish for release. These images might describe addiction, guilt, destructive behavior, or another personal struggle, but the lyrics leave the cause open. The movement between desperation and hope makes the speaker’s determination feel fragile rather than triumphant.