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Derez De'Shon
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You don't even know the sacrifice I done made for me to make it
You don't even know 'bout all the highs and days of pain
That had me thinking 'bout killing myself
I swear to God I could've died from thinking
I should've died from all them pills I popped and all that drinking
But I survived, I'm a survivor
I ain't gonna lie, sometimes I ask God why
God, why, bro, why not me?
He was a good kid, I was thugging
I was in the streets
I was kicking doors and selling dope just to eat
I was throwing gang signs with niggas just like me
Tryna find love, tryna find peace
He went to school, he played ball, he could've been in the league
But instead he R.I.P.'d
That's my lil' cousin, when he died he took a part of me
I tried to tell lil' Jont to leave, but he ain't wanna leave
And I left him, so I guess his death is all on me
'Cause he was following me
Tears rolling down my cheeks, yeah, aye
I just had to take a second to breathe
God knows this shit hurting me more than y'all believe
God knows I'm hiding tears that I can't let y'all see
God knows this pain in me and it running deep
God knows I'm fighting demons, scared to fall asleep
God knows I'm fighting this addiction, but I'm weak
I need a Perc right now, yeah, ugh
I need a Perc right now, yeah
I need a Perc right now
You call me a J for tryna numb my pain
Looking at me crazy, don't know what you saying
I been out my mind lately, all that playing
I'm suicidal right now, fuck it, I'm just saying
'Cause my anxiety starting to get the best of me
Inside I'm rioting, fighting with the devil
I'm just tryna do what's righteous
But every day you're not with me, it feel like I'm dying, ugh
I wanna live to have no worries
I wanna know how that feel to have the
world in my palms and know it's for real
If you did half the shit I did,
then you'll pray God forgives, for real
When you do business with the devil, ain't no deals
Never sold my soul and I'm guessing
that's why I'm still taking the hard way
Thanking God today that I'm here, Derez De'Shon
I need a Perc right now, yeah, ugh
I need a Perc right now, yeah
I need a Perc right now
Hey bro, give me that lil' bookbag right there
The lil' black bookbag, yeah, that one