You've Ruined Me

The speaker describes being overwhelmed by a relationship or attraction. At first, the feeling seems enjoyable: “I liked it.” But that pleasure has turned into emotional confusion and dependence. The speaker says they are leaving, yet keeps writing and ends up outside the other person’s door. The movement is from excitement toward regret, though the speaker still seems drawn to the person.

“I'm in your hands” suggests that the other person has power over the speaker’s feelings or choices. “My whole world’s now turned upside down” expresses how deeply the relationship has disrupted their life. The image of “chocolate eyes / like buttons of lies” is less straightforward: the eyes may seem appealing but also deceptive, or the speaker may be suspicious and hurt. “My face is red” could mean embarrassment, shame, or anger.

“Ruined” is probably an exaggeration rather than a literal claim: the speaker feels changed, vulnerable, and unable to act as planned. The repeated contrast between liking the experience and feeling damaged leaves the emotion unresolved. The speaker may be blaming the other person, admitting their own mixed feelings, or doing both. Even the question about whether the other person has “a plan” could be a plea for guidance—or a way of asking what this connection is becoming.