Bad Habit
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Yeah
Been a while since I slept right
Find demons in my head almost every night
Tellin' people that I'm fine, that's a white lie
But I'm pretty good at wearing mask on the front line
I'm not a patient but to me the music's therapy
I try to shake off all the doubt that's always scaring me
But if I struggle with my faith they call it heresy
I don't need comments saying that you pray for me like charity
'Cause what I really need is people that will stick around
But when it gets a little tough they're nowhere to be found (nowhere to be found)
I'm sick and tired of the people asking if I'm down
Like don't you listen to the words that's been coming out of my mouth
Mental illness ain't a feelin', it's a real imbalance
And if you try to tell the truth they always try to challenge
Like maybe you just need to focus on your talents
Like I'm choosing to be sad and I can break it like a bad habit
But that ain't the way it works
I'm sick and tired of hurtin'
And all I really wanna do is feel like maybe I'm worthy
But I just keep on searching
Everybody is lurkin'
So I put my best face on like I've been rehearsing
And I don't mean to be so negative
But I'm so tired of people telling me how to live
And even though I'm my own nemesis
All I want is someone to tell me that I'm worth a risk
When I feel like I'm losing my mind
My sanity and myself (myself)
Just for a day
Wish I could be somebody else
Somebody happy, somebody free
Someone who's not tired of dealing with me
Someone who's different, someone who's kind
Someone ok with me losing my mind
Only jealous of a good heart
Strangers always see your potential they had to look far
People in your inner circle, envious that's for sure
That's why I'm driving in my own lane like a four door
Who's they stand they tryna fix the game like a score car
That's why I'm never letting them get to me like a high score
Yeah, they wanna see you lose, tryna wear your shoes
Then when you fall down, all they wanna see you groove
Depression all around me, real life and in the news
But I made of something different and I got a lot to prove
They'll back up me
Grey had a great catch
Cam knowing that Grey had a great stretch
You could be a superstar that disapproved like a mess
That's why I'm giving credit to the ones who then came next
Giving credit to myself
'Cause I've been through so much and made it out of hell (out of hell)
Been to prison and I'm working just to get about the cell
Revealing every single scar like my life was show and tell (tell)
People love you and hate you when you are the same person
'Cause they labelling me but I'm not a different version (no I'm not)
I'm just me
I'm progressing like a symphony
Tryna play it by ear
Don't need your sympathy (no I don't)
Stayin' strong so I'm working towards the victory (victory)
If I fall, get back up with some dignity
When I feel like I'm losing my mind
My sanity and myself (myself)
Just for a day
Wish I could be somebody else
Somebody happy, somebody free
Someone who's not tired of dealing with me
Someone who's different, someone who's kind
Someone ok with me losing my mind