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Now I only smile on Fridays
The lights turn off, the fan is on for comfort, but I lie awake
Her next to me is lovely
She was nice enough to fuck me before we went to bed
And now my body's feeling warm and comfy
My mind is on some "What the fuck is going on?"
I'm 25 without a basis yet to grow on
No foundation, feel like a newborn on the ground naked
Tears flowing, mouth open like screaming but no sound making
And do I sound crazy?
Probably not, cause we all feel the same
We all feel that pain
We all drink and smoke and fuck too much to numb it
Chasing money, bunch of fucking dummies, we all heal the same
But goddamnit, we all wake up like "Today will be the day I change"
Knowing motherfucking well tomorrow will be the same
I feel like this is all I write about
Depression is perpetual, I feel my life and write it down
Feeling trapped in my head
So I wake up on some late night shit, feeling trapped in my bed
Trying to quit smoking with those blues, but my friend
He left a pack of reds, walked past
The e-cig and grabbed the pack instead
I grabbed the lighter off the coffee table
Somebody left the TV on, so I turned off the cable
Something about that late night feeling
Had me feeling lost, unstable
Put on my Vans, grabbed my hat to cover my dumb ass hair
Then I walked down those stairs
And out the door and to the porch of my complex
Thinking I'm poor, but I'm complex
I lit my cigarette, I'm feeling alone
I'm feeling happy about forgetting my phone
Some days I'm on this shit like it's real life
Some days I forget my humanity, what it feels like
And down the street, I see this drunk ass
I'm thinking "Please walk past, man, don't even ask"
But, "Hey man, can I bum a smoke?"
So, I gave that bum a smoke
And then he asked me for my lighter, for my fire
Now this is where I get inspired, cause
He said "I'm sorry, all I brought was my habit"
Profound words of an addict
Cause all I came to this earth with
Was a habit and no purpose
Cause all I came to this earth with
Was my habit and my purpose
But I'm gonna die with a smile on my face
Even looking back, or looking forward
Let's hope that it's the former