Suedehead

The speaker addresses someone who keeps returning, calling, and sending notes despite knowing that their presence makes things difficult. The repeated apology sounds conflicted: the speaker may feel guilty, hurt, or simply unable to explain the situation. As the lyrics develop, a private boundary has clearly been crossed, yet the speaker admits the relationship also involved strong physical attraction.

The visitor sneaks into the speaker’s room and reads a diary. This is a concrete image of intrusion: the diary holds private thoughts, including many written about the visitor. The “illustrations” may suggest drawings in the diary, though they could also imply vivid descriptions. “A good lay” is a blunt, informal phrase meaning enjoyable sex; its repetition contrasts sharply with the speaker’s disgust and discomfort.

That contrast leaves the relationship hard to define. The speaker may be repelled by the other person’s actions while still remembering the sexual encounter positively, or the repeated phrase may sound like an attempt to reduce a complicated attachment to physical pleasure. The song does not explain why the visitor keeps coming back or what the speaker ultimately wants. Its tension comes from that uncertainty: desire and resentment appear to coexist.