Should Be Higher

The speaker longs for a relationship that feels like an answer, but that longing is mixed with shame, guilt, and distrust. A touch or kiss brings intense pleasure, even though the speaker says they tried to resist. As the song develops, desire remains powerful, while references to lies and painful loss make the relationship seem troubled rather than simply romantic.

“Lose who I am” suggests that the speaker feels absorbed by the other person, perhaps willingly: they say this happens “if I want to.” “You should be higher” and “I’ll take you higher” may mean lifting someone emotionally or spiritually, but the words could also suggest escape through pleasure. The “book” where lies are written down makes deception seem lasting and recorded, while “your arms are infected” turns an embrace into an image of affection contaminated by something harmful.

The lyrics leave the relationship’s nature unclear. “Love is all I want” may express sincere hope, but it sounds especially poignant beside the accusation that lies seem more attractive than truth. The repeated invitation to pray might suggest fear, desperation, or a search for forgiveness; it does not explain exactly what the speaker believes. Overall, the song can be read as a portrait of being drawn toward someone while recognizing that the closeness may come at an emotional cost.