Breadcrumbing
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Yeah I told myself I'm done but I don't ever mean it
Every time you disappear, I'm the one still feelin'
Got your name in my head like a song on repeat
Even silence from you somehow still sounds sweet
I keep checkin' my phone like it's somethin' alive
Like it owes me a message just to help me survive
I be sayin' "I'm fine," but I'm stuck in the same
Waitin' hours for a text that might never even came
Lyin' to myself 'cause you don't ever reply
Buildin' conversations that exist in my mind
Every "what if" turnin' into somethin' too real
While you out livin' life, I'm just stuck in the feel
I could leave, I could go, I could cut off the line
But I'm glued to the hope that you'll hit me sometime
And I hate that I care, yeah I hate that it's true
Every version of my day somehow ends up with you
I be talkin' out loud like you're still in the room
Like if I say it enough, you'll come back soon
But the memories just remind me I'm here on my own
Tryna turn all this heartbreak into a home
Maybe one day I'll wake up and I won't feel this weight
I won't sit by the door like I'm waitin' for fate
I won't keep every space in my life open wide
For somebody who never even stayed by my side
But tonight I'm the same, yeah I'm thinkin' of you
Still defendin' your name when they ask for the truth
And I know it's not right, but it's all that I know
How to stay when I should be lettin' you go
So I'm closin' every space that I left in your name
Let the darkness settle in, let it wash out the pain
If you call, I won't answer like I used to before
I'm not yours anymore... I'm not available no more