I Don't Know How to Love Him

The speaker is confused by a sudden, powerful attraction. She says she has changed and no longer recognizes herself as the calm, controlled person she used to be. Her feelings develop from puzzlement and fear into a clear admission of desire and love, though she still does not know how to handle them.

The repeated phrase “I don’t know how to love him” suggests not only uncertainty about what to do, but also difficulty understanding her own emotions. Calling him “just a man” seems like an attempt to make him feel ordinary, yet it does not reduce his effect on her. “Running every show” implies that she is used to being in control, while “He scares me so” shows how vulnerable this new feeling makes her.

The speaker’s fear is not the same as rejection: she says she wants and loves him, but imagines she might turn away if he returned her love. This creates a tension between longing and self-protection. The lyrics do not explain exactly why she fears closeness; it may be the intensity of the emotion, the loss of control, or uncertainty about what love would require.