On My Own
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But I am different
You'll get your chance
One day things will change
When? When will they change?
Probably when you least expect it
A lot of people say to me I seem a nice guy
But they don't show no interest, at least they don't try
I understand, yes I do
I'm the dude that's gotta try to be rude
And that's easily overruled
Always insecure about a couple of things
That got me nailed on the floor 'cause I'm scared for change
I blame it on the world but it's still my issue
And sometimes I wonder 'bout how my future coming kids do
And will they have my eyes and their mother's bright shiny hair
Will I even have 'em 'cause this life ain't fair
I gotta get myself together 'cause I'm wrapped in pieces
Terrible to see me like that but I'm believing
No nothing, at least, not what they tell me
Telling me my name is Kid Gaps and don't believe in me
Maybe they are right about the fact that I don't got what it takes
And this whole rapping thing is just a major mistake
And people think I'm not awake and not aware that it's dumb
I'm already dropping out of school for two years long
And I don't got a job or money on my own
And I don't have a loving girl, it's safe to say I'm home alone
I got a phone but no calls that I collect
I got a huge bill 'cause I carry wires to connect
I got a lack of motivation, I lost too many reasons
The raining has stopped but it's still freezing
Don't forget about the wind still breezing
Don't forget to say goodbye to Mr. Happy when he's leaving
I haven't seen my father for a long time now
But what scares me the most is that silence will become a sound
And now I'm bound to be unable to stand stable
Now being capable of swallowing my staple
I often worry 'bout my mother when she feels alone again
And puts her lips on this picture when she tries to find a man
It's never been so cold inside
And every night I'm sneaking out and
Smoking something that became my life
My happy life that I was living ripped apart
Now I'm scared of the dark, I hold a candle for a lonely heart
I'm there for hours as I look into the light
And making sure that I don't stare 'cause if I stare I go blind
I guess I gotta deal with the learning of the lessons
I got a lot of answers but not the right questions
Did you say I had a lot good?
You may be right 'cause I don't know what time it is in life
Did you say I had a lot good?
It could be true 'cause my outside is moving out of sight
Did you say I had a lot good?
You may be right 'cause I don't know what time it is in life
Did you say I had a lot good?
It could be true 'cause my outside is moving out of sight
A lot of people say to me I am a nice guy
I hope they're right and well at least I know I try
Of giving back a reason for some heavy backing up receiving
Just wait for my turn and do my favor in return
I dealt with pressure on a daily basis
But yesterday became a new year, it's time for the amazement
I'm gonna make it, that's what I'm telling to myself
As I hope for better times when the clock strikes twelve
I wanna get a job for next year, some education
Of course I'm gonna find a girl, the key is in the patience
I'm free, free to do whatever I please
And last week I wrote a lyric on my dope ass beat
All I'm saying is I'm passionate and got my thing to live for
Together with my family and dear friends, I'm with y'all
It's because of you that I keep on holding on
But have a knife to cut the power that I hold in my palm
I'm letting loose, choose a way to be continued
And what the fuck my future will be like
Yo I don't know what's on the menu
When you used to be a kid without a worry
You don't expect to turn into a blur that's in a hurry
To get straight and out about the hell that's going on
Now give me room and give me space so I can find a place to live on
Yo step aside and watch your toes, be surprised the time I flip it
And leave behind the non-believing competition
It's my decision to be living like this
And do you really think I didn't think it over when I started it?
Can't change what happened in the past, no doubt
But the future's in my hands and let it out the times I break down
If I got a penny for every time I dropped a tear
I wouldn't have no money, no I'd be a fucking millionaire
I can't even listen anymore to this song
Never can say goodbye 'cause that I'm shitty for another week long
But that be wrong so I try it tomorrow
'Cause tomorrow be a day without the
Ache and break and pain and sorrow
Without the visions that are burning my eye
I shove my pops into a oven so I'm getting burned in the fire
Call me a liar but I know that everything will be alright
I never follow shadow when I look into a light
Yo maybe I will never understand the lessons
But yo I damn sure hate it when somebody's not answering my questions
Did you say I had a lot good?
You may be right but I forgot about the waste of time
Did you say I had a lot good?
It could be true but I've always had this hard head of mine
Did you say I had a lot good?
You may be right but I forgot about the waste of time
Did you say I had a lot good?
It could be true but I've always had this hard head of mine
Did you say I had a lot good?
You may be right 'cause I don't know what time it is in life
Did you say I had a lot good?
It could be true 'cause my outside is moving out of sight
Did you say I had a lot good?
You may be right 'cause I don't know what time it is in life
Did you say I had a lot good?
It could be true 'cause my outside is moving out of sight