How Does She Stay
Michael Hammond-Wilson
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She walked in on silence, air thick like a grave. My body a ruin, my soul enslaved
Skin pale as ash, no pulse to greed. A shell of a man, crumpled in defeat
She screamed my name like a prayer to the void
Hands shaking, searching what I tried to destroy. The pills were hidden, but the truth was clear
I'd given up living, left her drowning in fear
She called for help while the walls closed in. Fighting for the life I refused to begin
Her tears soaked the bed, her voice shook the air. And I just laid there, too numb to care
I'd been gone for days, no calls, no word. I wanted to vanish, leave this world unheard
But she came home early, her love unshaken. To find me a corpse of promises broken
How does she stay when I drag her down? Pull her to the depths where hope drowns
How does she breathe when I steal the air? She held my death and still she cared
She's the fire in the hell I've made. Burning through the wreck of the choices I've played
She sees the monster and kisses its face. Holding on tighter to what I disgrace
I saw her eyes, bloodshot and raw. Begging the reaper to loosen his claw
She swore to leave if I did this again. But even now, she's my beginning and end
How can she fight for a man so lost? How does she carry the unbearable cost
She's a goddess, a warrior, a beacon of grace. And I'm the coward she refuses to erase
She pulled me from death, not once but twice. Gave me her heart while I rolled the dice
I stole her peace, yet she still forgives. How can I exist when she's the only reason I live
You held my hand while I begged for death. Fought for my soul as I stole your breath
I'm the fire that burns everything it meets. You're the hands that rebuild, the heart that beats
If love is war, then you've won every fight. You're the only reason I'm here tonight
She found me in pieces, blood and shame. And swore my darkness wouldn't take her name
If I'm a piece of shit, then let it be. Because she sees something worth saving in me
I'll never be enough. I'll never make this right. But I'll fight for her love. I'll burn through
the night. She's my savior, my hope, my guiding flame. I'm a piece of shit
But she loves me all the same
I see the world clearer when I'm not in its way. A place that would flourish if I just fade away
I am the poison that taints her soul. A dead man walking with no control
Her life would shine if I disappeared. No more shadows cast by the weight she's feared
I'm a storm that leaves nothing but despair. Yet she clings to the wreckage like I'm still worth
repair. She fights for a man who's a curse to the ground. A name that brings silence
not joy when it's found. I see my death as the gift I could give
But she sees a reason for me to live. I'll never deserve the air I breathe
A world without me would finally be free. But she holds my hand and whispers my name
Loving the man who's the source of her pain. She rebuilds the ruin I leave behind
A mercy I'll never deserve to find. Though I see my end as a blessing to all
She refuses to let me fall